Letting Go

Well, she's become more vague and it looks like it's not reversing. Time to say goodbye to a little more of my friend and sister-in-law. I'm not visiting as much anymore, mostly because my daughter is home from college and needs help she doesn't want trying to get her life going. But truthfully, it feels good not to visit as much right now because it's so difficult to say good bye to a person one chunk at a time. On top of that, the place where she lives, a Sunrise Assisted Living facility, has become a cornucopia of craziness, courtesy of the new executive director, who in another life must have been in charge of a battalion with orders to kill and destroy all in its path! How one person can within several week wipe out all joy in mudville has become a sight to behold. From imprisoning an in the prime of his life G. Shepherd/Black Lab mix, to making every employee miserable with rules and regulations, to closely guarding the sign in book at the front desk, to locking the gates to the garden to "protect" the residents, she has made herself a true menace, all the while talking constantly about her noble attributes!  Why is it we never see in ourselves that which drives everyone else absolutely crazy?  Or, if we do see it, as I feel I now do about myself, seem incapable of changing it?!  Go figure.  In the meantime, I am waiting for the time in my life that I can laugh at all of this the way my beloved sister-in-law does.  Do we have to lose absolutely everything that is near and dear to us to really understand the comic sense of the cosmos?  I hope not but suspect so! Thank you, Jude, for the insights you have given me. I love you.